Well, it's been a while. Eight weeks since my last entry to be exact. Before you judge me for my lack of commitment to my blog, let me give you a real reason to judge.
I messed up.
Over the past few months I've let some things come between my relationship with God. And so I've been quiet. A little known fact about me is I get real quiet when stuff isn't going as it should. Or maybe it's a well known fact; who knows. It's not that I'm hiding per se. I just prefer to keep my struggles to myself.
Of course I'm not going to confess my sins to you all. But I do have a list--albeit, a random list--of things I've learned from all of this. So I thought I'd share.
- God doesn't change. You're either going to live for Him or you're not. But His standards will not change
- Never look down on others for their shortcomings. You don't know when their shortcoming might become your shortcoming
- All play and no church makes for an angry me
- As a believer, never be so self-righteous that you won't consider the perspective of a non-believer. I had a self-professed non-believer point out how my anger contradicted my so-called Christianity (this one still stings just thinking about it. ouch!)
- The decisions you make will affect others around you
- Hebrews 4:12. Read it for yourself when you get a chance. But I'll say this; normally I can't remember scriptures to save my life. My memory is despicable. But as soon as I start getting off the right path, scriptures begin to flood my mind. Call me crazy, but I believe this is God's way of telling me He's not willing to let go of me so easily
- Faith and religion aren't just about living holy and going to church. Faith means putting total trust in God. I'll be real, this is a challenge for me
- If God has a test of faith for you to pass, you will not get anywhere until the test is done. Period.
- When I get frustrated with God for not moving as quickly as I think He should, I now remember all the ways He's blessed me. This promptly turns my wining into thanking
- That moment when you realize you love God more than anything and anyone
